Happy House Hunting

I have decided or better yet we have decided we are ready to be homeowners. No more rent, no more sharing of living space. I can't wait, no if only we could find something in our price range. On a side not the price range may up a little this next week, because I have a job interview for a management position. I'm overly excitied about this because that means no more silly polos and hello my closet of wonderful clothes I've been dying to wear for a good 6 months now. Wish me luck everyone! If I don't get it I am going to turn suicidal. Haha just kidding, I'll probably say fuck you and go work for another company :)

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wishes

I wish all the airplanes could be shooting stars. It would truly be amazing. Could you even handle if all your dreams/wishes came true. Would you be happy think of all the things you've wished for in your life. Would you be happy? Can't say if I'm sure I would be.

Pummy

I would fully like to express my true and undying love for my pummy. This person is amazing! I miss them everyday and I'm so happy they deicded to follow my blog. Thats a true friend. Oh and also pummy is my valentine! I wish I lived in Iowa City about 90% of each and everyday. Without my pummy I have no one to get drunk and have dance parties in a kitchen with. :) LOVEEEE YOUUUU Pummy!

Lovers Month

Aww who doesn't love this month, all the hearts, the reds, the pinks. But my question is why have a valentine? Why not have many? There are too many people out there to just share my love with one. So my valentines this year, they know who they are without names needed be expressed. :) Although as I've expressed before I don't know what love is but I sure know what the excited feeling is, the one where you can't wait to see or talk to that person one more time. The time when you don't hear anything kills you. It may not be love but its the feeling of knowing someone may want to talk to you again. I used to play a game heads was one boy tails was another when I couldn't decided who I liked more. Never matter the outcome because the feeling I got when the quarter flipped and I hopped it would land on that one side told me which one I did like more. I can't say that any of those relationships lasted but I'm not too upset about it. I do know that on what's supposed to be the happiest day of my life I'm going to sit and think if someone out there who I've loved or cared about before that we may not have ever fully gotten over is singing that old Gary Allen song, today. You never know if you make the right choice, but sometimes I guess you can't wait forever or life swallows you whole. I do know that, I'll always have a part of me that wishes it was different wishes it was that one person who cares about the things I have to say everyday no matter how silly or dumb they are. But life isn't a fairytale and dreams don't always come true. So I'll finish with this one note SCREW YOU Walt Disney, for making all those movies that had happy endings, why couldn't the prince just die at the end? That'd be more realistic then the garbage you produce. :)

Long Lost Friends

Today sitting here looking through old pictures I crossed a few that took me back. And a tear came to my eye, those pictures took me back into that moment but at the same time made me relaize how much I have missed those people. Life's to short not to take breaks and let loose. Some of my bestfriends I haven't seen in 6 months to a 1 year. That is crazy because at one point in time we were insperable. And now it's almost like a distant memory. Now if only I didn't have to work every week, I could travel to Iowa City or Kansas City. But life just sucks somedays, for now I'll keep looking at old pictures and remembering how it used to be, and keep waitng til i can relive those memories, and take new pictures of course. :)

Waiting

I am a very impatient person, I blame this on being apart of a generation where everything is at our finger tips, things that would have taken our parents days to do now takes a mins. I hate waiting for results or answers. I find it very annoying, I like to plan as much of my day as possible and if I have to wait on someone it drives me crazy. But with all that put aside I will sit here and wait til I relaize what I am after then plan the steps accordingly. Hmph....maybe I should just be mad at myself for taking so long to figure out which path to take. Why am I still waiting for someone else to decide for me. (Although I feel like Carrie Bradshaw right now lighting up a cigarette, but I am standing in the cold and on my phone lol) I think I will leave it at that tomorrow I will make my own path but for now, I will enjoy dreams of sugar plums in my head.

Two Is Better Than One

It's kind of like that song "two is better than one" there is so much time to figure out the rest of my life and you already have me coming undone. No one wants to be alone. There is always the comfort in having someone there at the end of the night in your bed. Whether or not they want to be there, it's still a warm body. Does true love exist? I'm waiting for the day when I find this out or if its always going to be a give and take thing, so then it's not really love it's settling. But life is too short to wait forever for the "real" thing. I have noticed that its nice to be myself but then you lack the butterflies, it becomes to routine, too boring. Someday I'll understand, I hope it's sooner than later because it's seems if life's to short to waste alone.